Trying to Understand God's Plotline

I don't understand God sometimes. 

I guess that's an obvious statement. I mean, God is so above us in so many ways. Actually, in almost everything. 

But I still want to understand. 

The thing I'm struggling with right now? The death of my cousin's little girl, Paisley-Ann.

Paisley was born with a heart defect known as HLHS. (Hypo-plastic Left Heart Syndrome) Many things happened during Paisley's short life. I know God has a reason for taking her after only short twelve days on earth. But I don't understand why she was brought here to begin with. She struggled, she hurt, she went through crap. So why did God decide to create her this way?

Psalms 139:13 "For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb."

If God created Paisley, why did she have this rare heart defect? Why did she live for only twelve days? Why why why?! 

Psalms 139:15 "My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth." 

God?!  Why did you create her that way?! Why did you take her so early from this life?!

Psalms 139:16 "Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were laid out for me, when as yet there were none of them."

God knew. 

He knew the length of Paisley's days. He knew her mission. He knew she had completed it. 

And while the family and friends that are left behind grieve and ache and cry, we know, deep down that her life know is so much better. Because little Paisley is in the presence of her Creator, with a perfect, whole heart that is beating healthy and strong for her Savior. 

No more tubes, no more surgeries. No more worry or pain for little Paisley. She is finally whole.

Paisley beat us to glory. She's walking hand and hand with the One who knew her days before they started; who knew her job here on earth was completed. And now our little Paisley-Ann Faith is with Jesus. One day, we'll all see her again.

While right now we still have questions and are frustrated and angry with God, he knows what he's doing. He's got a plotline unlike anything we could ever begin to understand. We just need to trust him through it all.

Even when we're struggling to understand His plan.