Wednesday, November 25, 2015

The Balancing Act

So ... enough about Bilbo. How about real life?

Yeah, about that. I feel like I'm juggling a million things and I can't do it anymore. The stress of moving six hours from home, even for a God filled adventure, is threatening to drive this whole family mad, bonkers, crazy, ect. ect. and all of the above. 

I know God didn't say it would be easy. In fact, he makes it pretty plan that it'll be anything but!
In this world you will have troubles...
John 16:33a
  
Yeah, about that God! Am I ever living through that! Thanks for the encouraging little peptalk! I really could use a helpful little pick me up! Not whatever that was!
Oh. You're not finished!? Well then, by all means!

...but take heart,. I have over come the world. 
John 16:33b

Wow! So my problems really aren't that big to God! And even though things seem to be spinning out of control and Mom is stressed and Dad is upset over Mom's stress and Riah can sense the stress and is clinging to Mom, therefore making her even more stressed and the other four kids are screaming and whining and anything and everything that can possibly go wrong does ... *GASP* 
God has overcome the world! He is in control!

When life stinks to the umpteenth degree for you, when a mom has cancer, when a daughter is in the hospital in critical care from a horrible car crash, when a brother and son dies, when you've given everything and still feel unless, when you're running from the past and yet it keeps haunting you...*GASP*

God has over come the world. He is in control! 

No matter the problem or what your facing...
He is in control.

No matter the situation or the stress...

He is in control. 


Isn't that so encouraging?! He has the whole world in his hand. He never let's go. And even when we are on the edge of a cliff, balancing what the world has thrown at us, His hand is there, keeping our foot steady. 

God, thank you for holding me in the Balancing Act. You never let go. you have overcome the world so no matter my troubles, no matter the pain of the moment, no matter anything, you are holding me! Thanks for that wonderful reassurance! 
Amen.   
 


Friday, November 20, 2015

Struggling to Understand

So. You're on God's adventure. You've said, "I know you want me on this adventure, Lord. But...now what?"
I feel like that is a question we always ask. What's our next step? Why are we on this journey if we don't even know where He is leading?

Again, I draw on Bilbo. Picture the scene from the movie where the Company has set up camp for the night in the old abandoned farm house. Gandalf, in a huff at Thorin, has gone off for a moment of great counsel. (With himself of course.)
Suddenly, as Bilbo takes Fili and Kili their supper, two of the horses are mysteriously missing. In that moment Bilbo must make a choice: will he help Fili and Kili with the horses and risk injury from giant trolls? Or head quietly back to the camp without another word?
Of course he does help them and ends up getting himself and the whole Company in a pickle. 
I bet when Bilbo was standing there, these thoughts were going through his head. 
 Oh boy. I have to actually play the burglar Gandalf made me up to be. I'm not ready for this decision. Where is Gandalf when I need him? He put me here, why isn't he helping me? 

I often feel like Bilbo. Thrust into a conundrum with out the help of my "Gandalf". Where is God anyways when I need him? Why isn't He making clear the next step?

Well, he's a lot like Galadriel in the third movie. Gandalf, is in the heart of Dol Guldur. Near death, he calls on the elven maid to asist him. She said at Rivendal, that if he called on her, she would come. And come Galadriel does, helping to defeat the Nazguls and saving Gandalf. 

God is a lot like that. He is simply waiting for us to call on him. Like it says in Matthew 7:7  "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you." (KJV)
God is simply waiting for us to call on him. Unlike Gandalf, God doesn't take breaks from our adventure. He is with us every step of the way. He is guiding our step and helping us to overcome every hurtle in our way. 

Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your path straight." (emphasis added)
 God knows our struggles. He wants to come in and help us if we ask.  He wants to make our way clear. We need to simple trust him and his plan. 

I'm not perfect, okay? I have been struggling with this very thing all day today. I don't understand why God is putting my family through this awful move or why he is making it so hard. But I do know I am called to be right here even when I feel like screaming and kicking and killing everyone in my family. I know I need his strength. And I know I need to ask for it. If you're struggling with anything right now, please join me in the prayer below. The attitude of you're heart is the most important thing. Ask God, and he will help you see.





God, help me to trust you even when I don't understand why this is happening. Help me to be an example of you even when I'm stressed and uncomfortable. Lord, your ways are perfect. Help me to trust you in everything all the time.
Amen.   

Thursday, November 19, 2015

Off We Go ... Slowly!

So, we're starting to pack. And it's taking forever! It's a wait and the devil's having fun making me doubt. 
Is it really worth it?


I kinda feel like Bilbo. On the pony. In the rain with allergies. Looking for any excuse to turn around and run for the comforts of hearth and home. I feel like he is thinking, This is miserable. I forgot my pocket handkerchief and I'm surrounded by loud and rowdy dwarves. WHAT WAS I THINKING?! And yet, the adventure is really going to be worth it. We know it, even if Bilbo can't yet.

I guess that excites me and terrifies me all at the same time. Because, even though it's slightly boring and feels so awful, I know it will get better. God knows, a lot like the viewers or readers of the Hobbit know, that it will be worth it. And yet it could (and probably will) get a whole lot worse! 

It sure did for Bilbo. I mean, getting caught by trolls, almost killed by orcs, sliding into the goblins kingdom ... the list goes on and on! So ... I guess I shouldn't be complaining. 

And even though all that junk happened to him, he was able to look back on it and smile! Cause while it was terrifying and life-threatening, it was worth it. 

And that's what I want to do. Be able to look back at this miserable transition of moving and be truly thankful it happened. It's helping me get going on this adventure. And come ran or shine, orc or elf, Gollum or Smeagol, I want to be the person who says, "Use me, Lord. You've put me here for a reason and I'm going to follow you ... even through the waiting." 

And I guess that's when the real adventure begins!   


Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Welcome to the Adventure!

My most favorite part in the Hobbit trilogy is where the dwarves are showing up at Bilbo's door. Bilbo is super flustered and bothered by this intrusion in his normal, food-filled routine. When everyone is there, Gandalf tells him about the adventure and their need for his ... ahem, burgling talent. Bilbo tells them all that his is not a burgaler that they have the wrong hobbit and should go on their merry way to the Misty Mountian without him.
But Gandalf knows that this is what Bilbo needs. It's exactly the kind of thing this food loving, non-adventuring Hobbit is destined for - adventure. Gandalf tells Bilbo this, that his family is destanded for adventure. Bilbo responds that he just "can't go running off into the blue!"
And yet ... not ten minutes later in the movie, he does. He drops everything and runs off with Thorin Oakenshield and  Co. And while Bilbo has a lot of hardships, endures things his kinfolk can't begin to imagine and comes home with the burden of the real world, he is a better hobbit for having lived the adventure Gandalf called him on.



     
God calls us to the adventure, too. And it's a lot like Bilbo's. It's not always going to be fun and full of wonderful surprises and that's okay. In fact, God doesn't calls us to all fun, but he does call us to an adventure of lifetime. 
I know. You're saying, shouldn't that be of A lifetime? Nope. Lifetime. Our whole life is one giant adventure story being written by our heavenly author.

Proverbs 3:5-6 says, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will make your paths straight."
I may not understand God's plan or think his plan is right, but even so I need to trust that he knows what he's doing even when I think it sucks and I'd rather be anywhere but here. :)  

And I'm not just preaching to preach. No, my family has been on a heck of an adventure. An adventure I didn't really want to always be on, but it has turned out pretty good, even though I still don't understand where I'm going!

And I want to take a minute to share our story with you: 

When I was six years old, my dad was asked to leave his job as a Youth Pastor in my home town of Battle Creek Michigan. For a year my dad worked at the local Target. After that, he and my mom felt God calling them to join Campus Crusade for Christ (now CRU). 
Life was crazy. We'd travel raising support so we could move to Little Rock, Arkansas. But again, God had a plot twist on our life. The church we had been going to for five years was looking for a new senior pastor. A lady who was very close to me - had been the reason we stayed at the church at all - asked my dad to put in his resume. My dad was like , "Sorry, but no. No more ministry work!" and God was like, "we'll see about that!"
Then we got stuck. We couldn't raise the last $200 to head to Little Rock. We'd gain some and then lose some. And for the most part, it wasn't us. One guy later told my dad he'd felt God telling him to stop supporting us. 
So my dad put in his resume. And got the job. Life was good for another three years.
But problems have a way of arising in a church. 
I don't know all the details. I don't need too. All I know is our church split. I lost most of my friends in Youth Group. What once had been a group of nearly thirty students, got cut to me, my two best friends and the youth pastor's three daughters. 
I was not to distraught though. The people I had been hanging out with weren't the best of influences and I still had two of my closest friends in the church.
We didn't grow much in that year. In fact, you could say our church was rather dormant.
Then one of the closest men to our family during the whole church split, a man my family had started to call 'Uncle' turned around and took over the church. He poisoned people's minds. Hinted that my dad was abusive when my dad was anything but. And my best friend's dad was in on it too. They managed to blackmail my dad with his severance pay. We couldn't tell anyone what had happened for six months.
It hurt. I was angry and bitter at those stupid people. But God was working on  my heart.  We went to a summer time church at Gull Lake Ministries. One of the speakers there talked about living God's adventure. he said it might not always be fun, that to gain friends, sometimes we have to lose the ones we have, but when we live the adventure planned for us, God will reward us! I was crying so hard. This was what I needed.
My dad was offered a job in Aledo, Illinois this August. And while it will mean leaving all the awesome people here in Michigan, I know it's where God has called us.

That's the start of my adventure. It only took ten years to get it started and it's not over yet. In fact, that's the whole reason I started this Adventure Blog, to share with you what God teaches me as I head out on this new chapter of this remarkable Story called Life. God's adventure is always the best place to be.
And who knows? Like Bilbo, I might just end up change not only my life, but the life of my friends and family, too. And I think that's a pretty awesome why to start an adventure don't you?